Monday, November 7, 2011

scatterbrains.

Lately I've found myself in an all-too-familiar place. A rut. Financially, creatively.....pretty much any word that can end in "-ly". I'm not too sure why. I had everything going for me a month ago. Perhaps it's boredom? A longing to start something new in my life?

Either way, all I've wanted to do lately is sleep away the days until Christmas. That's the kind of person I am, I guess. Instead of facing my problems head on I decide to hibernate until they somehow solve themselves.

It's kind of funny because I have all these crazy ideas swirling in my head, and all of these things I want to try. But every time I decide that I'll do it, I hold myself back and say, "I'll do it tomorrow." or "I'll start next month/year".

Plus the fact that there's that voice in the back of head that screams, "You'll never finish that once you start!!" and "What's the point of trying it, you'll screw it up somehow!!!!" whenever I get excited about starting something. I need to learn how to silence that annoying little girl.